Cut in to me with the words that rang
I trained my mind to block out the train
Can't stop
Turn around look back you're on blocks
Loose lips mixing with eyes on you like hawks
Dropping slack
touching pimples like chicken pox
I just got back
to trade good times for jagged rocks
Slime time
spread it on to blend in with grime
Meant it to be glitter
but it turns out that's a far climb
I got triggers
I get slipped upon my mix ups
My search for clarity glared sunshine into gridlock
Goldilocks
Taught me good enough is never good enough
I tell in hope that the come backs will be lift ups
But misanthropes
slip shit to outshine glad hopes
Wish my mind
A fit of insensible, less then reprehensible, carelessness confessed my brother
I couldn't let it go, I had to let him know, With words like fists I plundered
Once I had a grip, I really wedged it in, A self disgusted ego engine
I was a loaded gun, reckless and destructive, The tears in his eyes and I can't take it back
I can never take the moment back
I don't know who I was
Where that viciousness came from
It's a stain on my mind
I betrayed his trust and yearning for love
No matter how forgiven
I can't forget what I'm capable of
Petty wasted cruelties
I'll never take credit again
I'll never take credit again for what it's worth